Turned tassels.

Today marks the end of high school. Today tassels will be turned and some will be going away. It still haven't sunk in. What I'm worried about now is my mom. I hope she will turn out great before 12PM.

I loved them so much. Now it's time to let go. Yes, "malayang dumating, malayang aalis." That's life. You can't really have a whole bunch of people in your life forever.

For starters, I can't even imagine myself with another entity of people in a classroom. Laughing with them, working strategic winning plans with them.

Just like tassels, a new leaf will be turned. Life is an unending cycle. You'll never know what will happen next.

Thank you, 4PIETY for making my high school life experience a roller coaster of a ride.

Please

Mom, please turn out okay. Please. I'm in near tears now. You're one of my inspirations. I want you to see me graduate. Please.

And what about the shoes and clothes we bought yesterday for your outfit? All going to go to waste? No, mom. You're strong. Please turn out to be one.

Please :'(

It's so hard to change with everybody watching.

As simple as changing clothes, it may look awkward changing in front of a lot of people. But changing personalities? That's way different to changing clothes.

It's like you're afraid to change because people will notice. This works for me, I don't know about you. It's odd when people say you've changed without your knowing. It's stranger if people notice the change you acknowledge.

HEHEHE.

tristifical - causing to be sad or mournful.
eternitarian - one who believes in the eternity of the soul.
cosmogyral - whirling round the universe.
siagonology - study of jaw-bones.
autexousious - exercising or possessing free will.
nepheliad - cloud-nymph.
gardeviance -chest for valuables; a travelling trunk.
ictuate - to emphasize.
senticous - prickly; thorny.
interfation - act of interrupting another while speaking.
nequient - not being able.
sparsile - of a star, not included in any constellation.
perantique - very antique or ancient.
vacivity - emptiness.
redamancy - act of loving in return.
starrify - to decorate with stars; to make into a star.

New year, new beginnings.

2k11 started with a snore and some salivas flowing out of my mouth. It's new year, and I'm sleeping my asses off. What a nice way to start the year.

K, I cannot finish this because someone keeps on bugging me on Facebook Chat. BAMF.

Teehee! I creyed this Christmas

My mom was catching her breath. She's having difficulties. I don't want to look at her because I don't want to cry. It's Christmas. We haven't attended mass yet. This is not good. This is the worst Christmas ever.

Maybe, the Christmas spirit do lessens when you age. I, for example, is not feeling the Christmas spirit lately. I don't know. Is it because i'm aging or is it because of times today? Where crises are booming all over here and there. I don't know but i think I should. Maybe I'm feeling wrong because Christmas isn't only for kiddos with crunchyyyy paper bills. Oh, I miss being a kid!

Last night my tears were jerking out of my eyes. It's midnight and we don't eat Noche Buena. Maybe because we're accustomed this way but I don't like how we're accustomed. I want to eat Noche Buena. Maybe I'm being a spoiled brat which sometimes I am, BUT I WANT TO EAT NOCHE BUENA WTIH MY FAMILY. Lately we haven't eaten as a whole family. I cannot even remember the last time we ate as a whole family, with the four of us in one table. And I hate it. We all have hectic schedules like shit.

I want to have a break with my family. Out of town maybe. Or maybe as simple as the mall. Anywhere. I just want to spend time with them. Unlike eating with them, I remember the last time we went out as a family. We watched Transformers 1. It was my dad's birthday by then. I cannot remember the year. Let me search it. 2008-07? I'm not sure of my sources lol. I just want to get away from it all and hug my mom, dad and my brotha.

Keyne texted my mom. And my mom asar-ed me like whut-the-hell. Fine with me. I missed my friend Keyne. Not miss-him-because-I-loved-him but missed-him-because-it's-been-a-while-since-we-talked. Do you get that? I don't care if you don't lol. I opened up to him. The things I've been feeling lately. And I'm glad he listened. I'd punch him sqaure in the face if he won't. Kit's being an ass as always.

Merry christmas everyone! I hope you're all okay. And happy. And smiling.

:')

The field was congested. You'll get squished if you try to walk on it. My straight-from-the-box Vans were crying from the mud surrounding it. The rain didn't do any good. I can smell the foul-sweet sweats of the people around. Paskuhan na. Paskong Tomasino.

The Paskuhan was a blast. Pupil, even though Nasaan Ka? was the only song I know you guys sang, you're awesome because of Ely Buendia. Jay, you're freaking cool! Do the tummy waves! \m/

I have one question though; how much did that 10-minute firework display cost?

We were supposed to sleepover at Pamela's place. But since of the shitshat that happened, we were all-nighters at UST. Yes, we let the night pass in UST. We witnessed the Main Building's lights turn off and turn on again. Isaw Pam roll over and land. I saw Christell infested by mosquitoes. It was one hell of an experience and I am glad I did it. Christell and Pamela, we did it! We got over it. Congratulations! Love you both girls.

6AM, we went home here.
And slept our asses up to 3PM. God, that was one deep slumber. And did things I have not imagined doing. You bring out the gay in me.

I can't believe that this is me. Shit.


I love you both!