My mom was catching her breath. She's having difficulties. I don't want to look at her because I don't want to cry. It's Christmas. We haven't attended mass yet. This is not good. This is the worst Christmas ever.
Maybe, the Christmas spirit do lessens when you age. I, for example, is not feeling the Christmas spirit lately. I don't know. Is it because i'm aging or is it because of times today? Where crises are booming all over here and there. I don't know but i think I should. Maybe I'm feeling wrong because Christmas isn't only for kiddos with crunchyyyy paper bills. Oh, I miss being a kid!
Last night my tears were jerking out of my eyes. It's midnight and we don't eat Noche Buena. Maybe because we're accustomed this way but I don't like how we're accustomed. I want to eat Noche Buena. Maybe I'm being a spoiled brat which sometimes I am, BUT I WANT TO EAT NOCHE BUENA WTIH MY FAMILY. Lately we haven't eaten as a whole family. I cannot even remember the last time we ate as a whole family, with the four of us in one table. And I hate it. We all have hectic schedules like shit.
I want to have a break with my family. Out of town maybe. Or maybe as simple as the mall. Anywhere. I just want to spend time with them. Unlike eating with them, I remember the last time we went out as a family. We watched Transformers 1. It was my dad's birthday by then. I cannot remember the year. Let me search it. 2008-07? I'm not sure of my sources lol. I just want to get away from it all and hug my mom, dad and my brotha.
Keyne texted my mom. And my mom asar-ed me like whut-the-hell. Fine with me. I missed my friend Keyne. Not miss-him-because-I-loved-him but missed-him-because-it's-been-a-while-since-we-talked. Do you get that? I don't care if you don't lol. I opened up to him. The things I've been feeling lately. And I'm glad he listened. I'd punch him sqaure in the face if he won't. Kit's being an ass as always.
Merry christmas everyone! I hope you're all okay. And happy. And smiling.
Friday, December 24, 2010
Saturday, December 18, 2010
:')
The field was congested. You'll get squished if you try to walk on it. My straight-from-the-box Vans were crying from the mud surrounding it. The rain didn't do any good. I can smell the foul-sweet sweats of the people around. Paskuhan na. Paskong Tomasino.
The Paskuhan was a blast. Pupil, even though Nasaan Ka? was the only song I know you guys sang, you're awesome because of Ely Buendia. Jay, you're freaking cool! Do the tummy waves! \m/
I have one question though; how much did that 10-minute firework display cost?
We were supposed to sleepover at Pamela's place. But since of the shitshat that happened, we were all-nighters at UST. Yes, we let the night pass in UST. We witnessed the Main Building's lights turn off and turn on again. Isaw Pam roll over and land. I saw Christell infested by mosquitoes. It was one hell of an experience and I am glad I did it. Christell and Pamela, we did it! We got over it. Congratulations! Love you both girls.
6AM, we went home here.
And slept our asses up to 3PM. God, that was one deep slumber. And did things I have not imagined doing. You bring out the gay in me.
I can't believe that this is me. Shit.
I love you both!
The Paskuhan was a blast. Pupil, even though Nasaan Ka? was the only song I know you guys sang, you're awesome because of Ely Buendia. Jay, you're freaking cool! Do the tummy waves! \m/
I have one question though; how much did that 10-minute firework display cost?
We were supposed to sleepover at Pamela's place. But since of the shitshat that happened, we were all-nighters at UST. Yes, we let the night pass in UST. We witnessed the Main Building's lights turn off and turn on again. Isaw Pam roll over and land. I saw Christell infested by mosquitoes. It was one hell of an experience and I am glad I did it. Christell and Pamela, we did it! We got over it. Congratulations! Love you both girls.
6AM, we went home here.
And slept our asses up to 3PM. God, that was one deep slumber. And did things I have not imagined doing. You bring out the gay in me.
I can't believe that this is me. Shit.
I love you both!
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
The stupor I felt was rare. I often lose interest in things, but when it comes to my friends, I never do. I care for them, whether he/she's a friend or a true friend. What matters to me is the things we did that were fun and I never forget the laughters we once shared.
I treat my friends well (Well of course except for Christell because I often molest my bestfriend)and I try to do the best I can so that our relationship will become tougher and thicker. BUT WHEN THE BITCH GETS ON MY WAY, I WILL NOT HESITATE TO BITCHSLAP HER TWO TIMES. NO, MAKE IT FOUR.
But of course I'm kidding. I don't really want to kid on that statement but it will make me feel bad if I don't so, yeah. I have to kid.
So there's this girl who's supposed to be my friend but at this point of time, I think she's not acting like one. I dunno what has gotten in to her recently. But whatever it is, it does not please me. It all started a long time ago, some time along the Semestral Break when she private messaged me for ME NOT HAVING A GOOD ATTITUDE AND SHE'S NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT. And I was like, okay. Who are you to tell me something like that when you, personally, does not have a great attitudes. I let it go, being patient and an okay-girl that I am. When the semester started, she invited me over to her house to watch a movie with a bunch of other classmates. I was like, okay, why not.
A week or so after, she made me as her bull's eye target. She noticed that her friend, which is also my friend, is getting a little bit of maarte and all that. And she pinned that one on me. What's worse in that is she even told my friend TO STAY AWAY FROM ME. And God, that hurts.
Okay, a month or less than one passed and here she goes again. The same situation. Another friend this time. I'm really pissed off because what she's up to is so not okay with me. One more word from her foul mouth would make me go crazy and I'll really talk to her.
One last warning. I am warning you. One wrong move.
But of course you cannot read this because this is my blog and I write what I feel here and this is sorta private since few people knows this link. I don't want to stoop down your level but if that is what it takes to shut you up, I will.
I treat my friends well (Well of course except for Christell because I often molest my bestfriend)and I try to do the best I can so that our relationship will become tougher and thicker. BUT WHEN THE BITCH GETS ON MY WAY, I WILL NOT HESITATE TO BITCHSLAP HER TWO TIMES. NO, MAKE IT FOUR.
But of course I'm kidding. I don't really want to kid on that statement but it will make me feel bad if I don't so, yeah. I have to kid.
So there's this girl who's supposed to be my friend but at this point of time, I think she's not acting like one. I dunno what has gotten in to her recently. But whatever it is, it does not please me. It all started a long time ago, some time along the Semestral Break when she private messaged me for ME NOT HAVING A GOOD ATTITUDE AND SHE'S NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT. And I was like, okay. Who are you to tell me something like that when you, personally, does not have a great attitudes. I let it go, being patient and an okay-girl that I am. When the semester started, she invited me over to her house to watch a movie with a bunch of other classmates. I was like, okay, why not.
A week or so after, she made me as her bull's eye target. She noticed that her friend, which is also my friend, is getting a little bit of maarte and all that. And she pinned that one on me. What's worse in that is she even told my friend TO STAY AWAY FROM ME. And God, that hurts.
Okay, a month or less than one passed and here she goes again. The same situation. Another friend this time. I'm really pissed off because what she's up to is so not okay with me. One more word from her foul mouth would make me go crazy and I'll really talk to her.
One last warning. I am warning you. One wrong move.
But of course you cannot read this because this is my blog and I write what I feel here and this is sorta private since few people knows this link. I don't want to stoop down your level but if that is what it takes to shut you up, I will.
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